tawar ati sudah...

uishhh..
kental jugak ati neh eak..
sudah 5 ari xcontact..
kuat ckit lg ag okeyh..
tp skung da xd rase lah nk msg ngn dy tue...
slps melihat semua kemesraan dy...
tue la org ckp jgn terlampau sayang,
t jd benci....
tp xtaw la..
skung macam xd rase jer....

my love...

he is my love...
i really2 love him dam much...
he is Tn.Hj JAAFAR bin AWANG...
he is my father...
the man who i'm really2 love in this world..
no 1 can replace him in my heart..
now he not feeling well..
bkn skung..
sjak 10 thn yg lalu..
he got diabetes...
tue yg merisau kn sayer stiap kali nk tinggal umah...
makin hari dy makin kurus..
xsesihat dulu bdn nyer..
tp smlm yg membuat kn sayer sgt2 risau..
he can't walk...
kne pimpin..
sayer sgt2 takot..
sumtimes i think like to xtend my study..
wait until ayah btol2 chat bru nk g blja..
sayer x ley nk citer kat sape2..
kakak t dy risau..da la dy jaoh..
abg yg 1st lg lah mak xbgtaw..
mak xnk dy risau..
he also had problems n family to take care..
n 2nd one..
he also bz..meeting sane sni..
tp i'm feel very glad..
ayah want 2 go 2 the clinic..
it is miracle...
b4 dis he never ever want 2 go....
dr da bsg...
sgt2 lega bile dy da jumpe dr..
so dy da bwat pe dr ckp..
skung dy da pantang ckit..xmcm dulu..
eat everythings..
hopefully you will get well soon...
i love u AYAH!!!!!

really miss u..

i know dis guy seen i at standard 5..
n kami lost contact...
then after spm..
i don't know how..
we suddenly contact each other..
dlu kat sekolah bkn maen musuh..
he is my enemy!
salu gadoh...mende kecik.
gadoh la..bsg2..
mmg pantang lah kalo jumpe..
start contact after reunion sekolah..
time tue xd pown borak2...
tp dlm tepon sgt lah baek..
ok we had being a really good fwends...
nk smbg blajar pown tanyer dy..
ok ke tempat tue...
n finally i plh nk smbg foundation unikl...
semua xsupport..terutame nyer family.xcept my ayah..
he always wif me..
n mamat nie lah jugak salah sorg yg salu support sayer..
bile ad pape jer semua sayer citer kat dy..
dy lah tmpat sayer bercerite...
dy la kwn sayer yg salu bg sayer smgt..
mase berlalu sayer pown hbis da foundation..
then smbg degree..
still cntact ngn dy......
yer dulu dy ad nk sayer crik kn dy makwe..
tp sayer xreti la..
pape jd sayer xnk tggung..
then sayer pown takot..
bile dy da makwe..he will leave me..
smpai la ad ayat nie..
"alah xd org nk pown..ak kn ad.."
dy pown ckp mcm tue kat sayer..
ok kami kwn..tp tok serius bkn skung..
sayer xnk..kecewa lg dan lg..its hurts..
ok fine..sampai la saat tue tibe..
time final exam semester 2...
yes he got problem wif study n fwends n family..
time tue sayer bz nk final
time dy nk..sayer xd tok tlg dy..
i'm really bz wif my study n fwends..
i'm bz wif study group.
then i leave him alone..
to face all the problems..
24/7 i bz..
i'm only reply 1 or 2 msg..
that make him so stress..
then at that time..
there is a girl....
who had replace me....
while i'm not around..
that girl lah yg tlg dy..
yg dgr mslh dy...
patot lah after final sayer cnct asyik bz..
ble tanyer mslh da selesai dy sbok jgn kacow..
ok..fine..sayer yg salah dulu bwat dy mcm tue..
1 day....he told me sumthings.
to b honest wif me..
he admit..
he has another girl..
utk xnk jd lemah..
sayer sagt cool da time jer..
patot la kwn2 dulu xsuke sayer rapat ngn dy..
takot mende nie akan jd..
"man will leave a girl.wen he got another girl...."
sayer xsedeh tue..tp sayer sedeh sbb sayer da hlg tmpat tok bercerite..
sayer hlg tmpat tok mengadu..sayer hlg org yg salu support sayer..
tp tue semua salah sayer gak..
bile dy ad mslh sayer xd...
bile sayer nk citer mslh ad jer alasan dy..
semua nyer b'kaitan ngn gf dy..
gf dy xsuke kami rapat..
tp dy kwn sayer!!! :(
skung sayer rinduu awak.........
i miss my bff....

pulangkan kalo da rse xnk.........................................

arnie ad tgk keadaan sekeliling..
and bwat sayer t'pk...
shoul it b like dat?
sape kamoo nk bwat cam2??mak bapak ktorg pown xmcm tue k..
nape mesti pompuan salu jd mangse???
sape laki nk bwat suke ati dy jer kat pompuan...
even ko suami pown..
ko still xberhak nk bwat camtu kalo isteri tue xbwat slah..
korg engat kami pompuan nie tmpat tok korg lepas kn perasaan??
bile nk marah,korg marah kn kami,semua la..
pe kami bwat xpernah nk btol...
ape korg tue perfect sgt ke???
dulu time ngorat mcm2 kn pijak semut pown xmati..
hmmm..lepas kawen semua terselah...
nape mesti ad lg situation mcm ni??kite semua kn da tepelajar,ad ilmu..
ilmu agame tue tlg la terap kn dlm kehidopan seharian..
pk lah kalo nk bwat something tue..pliss la..
korg kalo da xsyg kami semua nie kn sbg isteri da la..
pulang kn kami kat family kami balik..
da lah jgn nk jd kn kami tpmt tok korg maki,pukul da semua la..
kami pown ad perasaan..ad hati..bkn korg jer taw..
lg2 kalo yg da ad anak tue..xmalu ke??
org luar tgk korg,mengate korg..
da ad anak tue b'tanggungjawb la ckit..kcik yer anak xreti nk b'pk lg..
tp kalo da besar?korg xpk pe yg dy akan bwat??
sayer kcian tgk kalo ad kes mcm nie..
mslh mak bapak anak2 yg rase..
hari2 tgk parents gadoh..korg xpk ke effect pa anak2???
korg xpk pe yg dy rase kalo tgk mak dyorg kne pkul??
dy anak,lg byk kearah ibu taw...
ibu yg lahir kn mereka..
pliisss la wahai "korg2"...
lpas nk kawen pk lah..
korg btol2 rase ad tggungjawab tak..kalo setakat nk kawen ikot nafsu..lupe kn lah...

p/s: luahan ati sayer tgk broken family...sayer blom lg kawen tp bile tgk camnie kn..takot kn..

bosan2.

da lme xaktif ngn blog..hehe
tp bile da bosan tue terase rajin lak nk b'blog2..
nk citer pe eak..
hmmm....ok lah sal mimpi sayer yg tlh menyedar kn sayer..huhu
sjak sminggu yg lpas asyik dok mimpi org yg same jer...
pe mksd eak??
da la org tue lme giler xjumpe.then lost cntct lak tue..
ntah pe cer la dy tue eak..
bile t'mimpi kn dy engat pulak citer2 lame...
zaman dunie remaje dulu kala..(skung pown remaje ag ok!!)
dy,org yg sayer p'nah admire..mayb smpai skung..
ntah la xtaw la pe yg menarik sgt dy tue
smapai kn skung masih lg admire kot..hehe
he just a simple guy..wearing a spect..hmmmm
nice looking for me laa...(ensem kottt..)
ntah la malu2 ckit..(malu2 kucing gtu..)
ape yg menarik nyer...
sayer akan compare stiap laki yg rapat ngn sayer dgn dy..
y suppose i do that???
sdg kn dy ngn sayer bkn ad pe pown kn..
tp tue la yg sayer bwat...
b4 this ad lah sayer t'suke some1..tp bile pk balik..
and da t'engat balik mamat tue..
bru sayer perasan yg org sayer suke tue ad ciri2 mcm mamat tue...
bile lah sayer blh lupe dy....
t'engat lak dulu2 kale..lgu neh salu jer tok sayer..DILEMMA...

No matter what I do,
All I think about is you,
Even when I'm with my boo,
Boy ya know I'm crazy over you

trok eak...hmmmmm...
so skung tok sayer mengelak dr masih d bygi dy..
sayer nk cri lelaki 'GEMOK!!XPKAI SPEK!!XTINGGI!!....'
hehehhehee..sbb tue sayer suke laki gemok!!huhuhuhu..